Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.

please, please don't take away my ability to trust.

we must always, always learn to forgive and to forget no matter the intensity and magnitude of the pain but there's one thing no one is able to avert and that is the presence of scars that were left behind, which provides perpetual reminder of the darkest moments in our lives. how do you live your whole life and forget everything with its presence in tow?i compartmentalise memories; the good and the bad. the latter merits no recollection while the former makes me smile always.

stay gold.

i need support.

"Isn’t it funny that your heart can be broken by someone that was always pretending? Funny how your friends can make you feel better about any situation. Funny how when something bad happens, it’s all you can think about? Funny how bad we think we’ve got it, compared to others who have it worse. Funny how no matter how much we have, we’re never thankful. Funny how we can have so many friends, but if we fight with one, life sucks. Funny how your best friend can hurt you even more than your worst enemy can? Funny how no matter how hard we try, life will never be perfect. Funny how many times we can be hurt the same way, and how much more it hurts. Funny how one person can make you feel pretty even on your worst days. Funny that no matter how much you like someone, if nobody thinks you should be with them, you give into peer pressure. Funny how on rainy days it’s so much easier to smile. How one fake friend, can ruin a life. Funny how your best friend can become your worst enemy with one mistake."