show me a sign.

2010-08-02T22:30:00.000+08:00

get what i mean?

2010-04-06T18:13:00.002+08:00

when drifting meets breakdance,

feat. singapore's very own breakdance group, Radikal Forze.

NICE!

2010-03-31T01:51:00.002+08:00

why does it always happen to me?

time after time.

what exactly did i do to deserve all this pain?

why do i keep repeating the same mistakes?

i'm sure no one is perfect in this world, everyone makes mistakes.

everyone deserves a chance.
everyone needs time to change.

but no, you chose to walk away.

2010-02-15T14:13:00.002+08:00

Is our secret safe tonight
and are we out of sight
or will our world come tumbling down

Will they find our hiding place
is this our last embrace
or will the walls start caving in

Love is our resistance
they'll keep us apart

and they wont to stop breaking us down
hold me
our lips must always be sealed

If we live a life in fear
I'll wait a thousand years
just to see you smile again

Kill your prayers for love and peace
You'll wake the thought police
we can't hide the truth inside

2010-01-31T16:28:00.001+08:00

I've never felt this way
All comes and goes
It doesn't matter

I'm falling too fast
All seemed so far
It never mattered

However did it came this way
I pulled through but you're gone
Something's different
Something's changed

Sometimes
I wished i didn't care
go back to the times
I feel the freedom of choice

But i believed
Yes, i've achieved
Whatever is the reason
You know that i'm here
Cause i've been waiting
I've been praying
i leave it all to you

I have something left unsaid
you never let it be heard
i'm here praying
i'm here wondering
how this change come about

2009-12-30T00:00:00.003+08:00

I've met someone this year

who i know i will never forget in years to come.

2009-12-26T01:31:00.001+08:00

my two eyes are red, my feelings are blue

i can't sleep in bed cause i will miss you

if you don't miss me, then something is wrong

cause my heart is sweet, that's where you belong

-anonymous

2009-12-21T00:00:00.001+08:00

We were given two hands to hold,
Two legs to walk,
Two eyes to see,
Two ears to listen.
But why only one heart?
Because the other one,
Was given to someone for us to find.

2009-12-20T21:58:00.000+08:00

2009-12-16T23:30:00.000+08:00

2009-12-13T21:09:00.001+08:00

2009-12-10T22:04:00.000+08:00

2009-12-06T14:30:00.000+08:00

2009-12-03T23:49:00.000+08:00

2009-12-01T22:10:00.000+08:00

caught in a bad romance.

2009-11-30T12:07:00.001+08:00

Apologizing does not always mean that you are wrong and the other person is right.

It just means that you value your relationship more than your ego.

2009-11-29T11:55:00.000+08:00

3rd FEB 2010!

2009-11-28T16:43:00.000+08:00

It isn’t how you forget,

but how you forgive,

not how you listen,

but how you understand,

not what you see,

but how you feel,

it’s not how you let go,

it’s how you hold on.

2009-11-27T21:23:00.000+08:00

this is a must watch movie!

2009-11-25T22:39:00.001+08:00

The drops of rain they fall all over

This awkward silence makes me crazy

The glow inside burns light upon her

I’ll try to kiss you if you let me

2009-11-25T22:33:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I wish I could fast forward time

just to see if it will all be worth it in the end.

2009-11-20T23:44:00.000+08:00

I’m sure that I will always be

A lonely number like root three
The three is all that’s good and right,

Why must my three keep out of sight

Beneath the vicious square root sign,

I wish instead I were a nine
For nine could thwart this evil trick,

with just some quick arithmetic
I know I’ll never see the sun, as 1.7321

Such is my reality, a sad irrationality
When hark! What is this I see,

Another square root of a three
As quietly co-waltzing by,

Together now we multiply

To form a number we prefer,

Rejoicing as an integer
We break free from our mortal bonds

With the wave of magic wands
Our square root signs become unglued

Your love for me has been renewed

-David Feinberg

2009-11-16T21:17:00.001+08:00

2009-11-14T01:18:00.000+08:00

2009-11-14T01:05:00.000+08:00

2009-11-13T01:04:00.000+08:00

i'm scared as hell to want you,

but here i am, wanting you anyway.

2009-11-10T22:32:00.000+08:00

"It was pouring rain, and your mum came to pick us up but the car was way across the street.. so, you grabbed my hand and we went for it. It was probably only for about ten seconds… but when we got into the car, all I could think about was the fact that you held my hand."

2009-11-07T21:35:00.001+08:00

"Have you ever wanted to ask a question, but you didn’t, because you knew in your heart that you wouldn’t be able to handle the answer?"

2009-11-04T21:25:00.001+08:00

Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.

2009-11-03T18:58:00.000+08:00

2009-11-02T19:03:00.000+08:00

2009-11-01T20:57:00.001+08:00

please, please don't take away my ability to trust.

we must always, always learn to forgive and to forget no matter the intensity and magnitude of the pain but there's one thing no one is able to avert and that is the presence of scars that were left behind, which provides perpetual reminder of the darkest moments in our lives. how do you live your whole life and forget everything with its presence in tow?i compartmentalise memories; the good and the bad. the latter merits no recollection while the former makes me smile always.

stay gold.

2009-10-31T00:00:00.000+08:00

2009-10-30T10:31:00.000+08:00

i need support.

2009-10-29T20:29:00.003+08:00

"Isn’t it funny that your heart can be broken by someone that was always pretending? Funny how your friends can make you feel better about any situation. Funny how when something bad happens, it’s all you can think about? Funny how bad we think we’ve got it, compared to others who have it worse. Funny how no matter how much we have, we’re never thankful. Funny how we can have so many friends, but if we fight with one, life sucks. Funny how your best friend can hurt you even more than your worst enemy can? Funny how no matter how hard we try, life will never be perfect. Funny how many times we can be hurt the same way, and how much more it hurts. Funny how one person can make you feel pretty even on your worst days. Funny that no matter how much you like someone, if nobody thinks you should be with them, you give into peer pressure. Funny how on rainy days it’s so much easier to smile. How one fake friend, can ruin a life. Funny how your best friend can become your worst enemy with one mistake."

2009-10-28T20:07:00.000+08:00

i love the colour of it, unique.

2009-10-27T20:54:00.000+08:00

2009-10-26T21:50:00.000+08:00

"To be honest with you, I don’t have the words to make you feel better. But I do have the arms to give you a hug, Ears to listen to whatever you want to talk about & I have a heart; a heart that’s aching to see you smile again."

2009-10-25T00:07:00.002+08:00

2009-10-24T00:31:00.000+08:00

2009-10-23T12:23:00.000+08:00

2009-10-22T20:52:00.001+08:00

2009-10-21T21:13:00.000+08:00

2009-10-20T23:36:00.000+08:00

2009-10-19T21:52:00.000+08:00

2009-10-18T12:47:00.000+08:00

2009-10-18T00:55:00.001+08:00

We sometimes encounter people, even perfect strangers, who begin to interest us at first sight, somehow suddenly, all at once, before a word has been spoken.

2009-10-18T00:53:00.001+08:00

Sometimes being a friend means mastering the art of timing. There is a time for silence. A time to let go and allow people to hurl themselves into their own destiny. And a time to prepare to pick up the pieces when it’s all over.

2009-10-17T00:45:00.001+08:00

It's not administering a promise that we fear, it's the breaking of a promise that we fear the most. I'm not afraid to promise you, I love you and I'll do whatever it takes. Goals fade into oblivion all of a sudden, a vision marred by the very ephemeral desires, which desensitise and trivialise your true heart. I love you, and I promise you with the best of my ability, an ability that may even surpass.

And because we must love ourselves, then we're able to love others.

2009-10-17T00:44:00.001+08:00

we must always, always learn to forgive and to forget no matter the intensity and magnitude of the pain but there's one thing no one is able to avert and that is the presence of scars that were left behind, which provides perpetual reminder of the darkest moments in our lives. how do you live your whole life and forget everything with its presence in tow?

i compartmentalise memories; the good and the bad. the latter merits no recollection while the former makes me smile always.

2009-10-16T11:22:00.003+08:00

Fifty percent of something is better

than a hundred percent of nothing.

-Han, tokyo drift.

2009-10-15T00:49:00.001+08:00

"And there’s no worse feeling than when you wake up and feel okay for a minute and then that sick feeling washes over you and you remember it’s not okay."

2009-10-15T00:47:00.001+08:00

"I guess you’re right; I’m afraid. I’m afraid to put my guard down. I’m afraid that if you know who I am, you won’t feel the same. And I’m afraid that once my barrier is defeated and I’m comfortable, that you’ll walk away. Because that’s what everyone’s done anyway."

-eletheowl

2009-10-15T00:00:00.000+08:00

Chasing Shadows.

2009-10-14T11:16:00.001+08:00

2009-10-14T00:00:00.001+08:00

"Every time, I think everything’s going really well. I mean, I try really hard - it all fucks up. And I think that ..maybe I’m just one of those people that doesn’t deserve to be happy."

2009-10-13T21:30:00.001+08:00

2009-10-12T23:02:00.001+08:00

no woman, no cry.

2009-10-11T00:01:00.001+08:00

2009-10-11T00:00:00.001+08:00

2009-10-10T00:40:00.000+08:00

"I just need to know that someone out there listens and understands and doesn’t try to sleep with people even if they could have. I need to know these people exist."

2009-10-09T23:37:00.000+08:00

2009-10-08T23:25:00.001+08:00

2009-10-08T22:13:00.000+08:00

A man will pay $2 for a $1 item he wants.
A woman will pay $1 for a $2 item that she doesn’t want.
A woman worries about the future until she gets a husband.
A man never worries about the future until he gets a wife.
A successful man is one who makes more money than his wife can spend.
A successful woman is one who can find such a man.
To be happy with a man you must understand him a lot and love him a little.
To be happy with a woman you must love her a lot and not try to understand her at all.
Married men live longer than single men.
But married men are a lot more willing to die.
Any married man should forget his mistakes.
No sense two people remembering the same thing.
Men wake up as good-looking as they went to bed.
Women somehow deteriorate during the night.
A woman marries a man expecting he will change, but he doesn’t.
A man marries a woman expecting that she won’t change and she does.
A woman has the last word in any argument.
Anything a man says after that is the beginning of a new argument.

-unknown author

2009-10-03T23:29:00.000+08:00

intensity in ten cities.

2009-10-02T23:53:00.000+08:00

If that's how you feel, then what's there to do?
I'll keep this feeling in my heart
but when you look in my eyes, you will know the truth.

the wedding singer

2009-09-30T23:25:00.003+08:00

all i wanna do, is grow old with you.

2009-09-29T22:52:00.000+08:00

2009-09-28T23:01:00.001+08:00

We are all guilty of saving old messages from someone who became really special in our lives and going to familiar places that gives us that small twinge in our hearts and smiles on our faces. It's one of the most bittersweet feelings ever because every time that person crosses our minds, we remember the instances when we were happy and complete.

Far from what i once was, but not yet what i'm going to be.

2009-09-28T22:55:00.001+08:00

There's a heart that must be free to fly,

that burns with a need to know the reason why.

2009-09-27T13:54:00.001+08:00

should i sell my polaroid?

hmm

i'm running dry soon.

2009-09-26T13:26:00.002+08:00

another LTA fine.

this time round, $130.

i just receieved it this morning.

i don't know whether should pay or not,

or else i have to go to court.

sigh

well, only god knows.

2009-09-24T22:53:00.002+08:00

2009-09-24T22:48:00.000+08:00

2009-09-23T22:44:00.000+08:00

2009-09-21T23:49:00.000+08:00

i should be cold and heartless instead

but i'm trying not to.

2009-09-20T23:55:00.003+08:00

i realised that i've done numerous of bad deeds and sins

towards my mum.
it's like we've been quarelling almost everyday.
in fact, everyday.
i don't know who usually starts everything
but from now on,
i must learn to give and take.
in other words, give in most of the time.
it's time to change, before it's too late.

2009-09-20T01:02:00.002+08:00

to my muslim friends,
SELAMAT HARI RAYA!
MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN.
forgive my wrong deeds and my sins,
the mistakes i did on purpose and the ones not on purpose.

to my non-muslim friends,
HAPPY HOLIDAYS!

2009-09-19T22:54:00.000+08:00

2009-09-18T22:27:00.000+08:00

2009-09-18T00:39:00.002+08:00

we have so many masks,

we put on everyday that we realise,

we no longer know which one is real .

-tere arigo

2009-09-17T15:01:00.004+08:00

Communication. It’s the first thing we really learn in life. Funny thing is, once we grow up, learn our words and really start talking the harder it becomes to know what to say.

Or how to ask for what we really need.

— Grey’s Anatomy

2009-09-17T00:13:00.002+08:00

The great moments of your life won’t necessarily be the things you do. They’ll also be the things that happen to you. Now, I’m not saying you can’t take action to affect the outcome of your life. You have to take action. And you will! But never forget, that on any day, you could step out the front door, and your whole life could change forever. You see the Universe has a plan kids; and that plan is always in motion. A butterfly flaps it’s wings, and it starts to rain. It’s a scary thought, but it’s also kind of wonderful. All these little parts of the machine constantly working… Making sure that you end up exactly where you’re supposed to be.. exactly when you’re supposed to be there. The right place. At the right time.

2009-09-16T22:51:00.003+08:00

can we erase from our minds the agony of uncertainty in our lives?

2009-09-16T00:51:00.001+08:00

Happiness is an attitude.
We either make ourselves miserable, or happy and strong.
The amount of work is the same.

2009-09-16T00:31:00.005+08:00

haha, sick.
i still have the phobia of being a pillon, after what i've been through.

2009-09-15T01:23:00.000+08:00

Have you ever felt insecure about yourself but you never dared to admit it no matter what? Like you just pretend to be okay and prevent from going near that weak spot of yours as much as possible. Even if others notice or talk relative issues about it, you will just laugh it along and not show it, because you know it is your weakness?

2009-09-13T05:20:00.005+08:00

If your head tells you one thing and your heart tells you another, before you do anything, you should first decide whether you have a better head or a better heart.

2009-09-12T01:19:00.000+08:00

2009-09-11T00:02:00.000+08:00

Sometimes the people we love just forget to love us back.

2009-09-10T01:20:00.005+08:00

"I think I’m at the point where I’ve liked you for so long that it’s just an automatic response for me. I don’t know if I really still do, but whenever someone says your name, my heart beats faster. I still get jealous and you still have the power to ruin my entire day. But I have a feeling that’s just the way it’s gonna be for awhile. I know I need to move on, I just don’t know if I can. I’m not strong enough to move away from the one amazing person that’s been on my mind forever. So do you think you could please make this easy and just love me back?"

-ED.

Sometimes, the leap of faith is all we have.

2009-09-09T00:19:00.006+08:00

"There is always one person you love who becomes that definition. It usually happens retrospectively, but it happens eventually. This is the person who unknowingly sets the template for what you will always love about other people, even if some of these loveable qualities are self-destructive and unreasonable. The person who defines your understanding of love is not inherently different than anyone else, and they’re often just the person you happen to meet the first time you really, really, want to love someone. But that person still wins. They win, and you lose. Because for the rest of your life, they will control how you feel about everyone else."

-ED.

2009-09-07T13:55:00.002+08:00

that blue nissan skyline from fast and furious 4

turns me on, totally. urgh

15 MORE DAYS!

then it will be my one year anniversary!

and then i need not drive with probation plate! :D

on a side note, 13 more days to hari raya.

frankly, i don't feel the hype at all.

attachments and stuff, i bet i'm going to miss out.

2009-09-06T02:04:00.004+08:00

must there be a reason to fall in love?
i'm not forcing you to fall for me or like me,
i just want you to know how much i like you
ever since the day we met till now.

2009-09-04T01:40:00.000+08:00

a little tweek, but not overhaul.

2009-09-02T22:51:00.004+08:00

can't wait to get my hands on fast and furious 4 dvd.
and then, i'll have the full collection! :D

and my blog is not emo!
sheesh

2009-09-02T01:20:00.000+08:00

2009-08-28T23:57:00.002+08:00

“The greatest irony of love; loving the right person at the wrong time, having the wrong person when the time is right and finding out you love someone right after that person walks out of your life. And sometimes, you think you’re already over a person, but when you see them smile at you, you’ll suddenly realize that you’re just pretending to be over them just to ease the pain of knowing that they will never be yours again. For some, they think that letting go is one way of expressing how much they love that person.

In my opinion, some are afraid to see the one they love being held by someone else. Most relationships tend to fail not because of the absence of love. Love is always present. It’s just that one was being loved too much and the other was being loved too little. As we all know, the heart is at the center of the body but it beats on the left. Maybe that’s the reason why the heart is not always right.

Most often we fall in love with the person we think we love but to only discover that for them we are just for passing time while the one who truly loves us remains either a friend or a stranger. So here’s a piece of advice; let go when you’re hurting too much, give up when love isn’t enough, and move on when things are not like before. For sure there is someone out there who will love you even more.”

Once I came upon this quote in a book and it says ” You need and deserve someone who loves you for who you are, not who you are pretending or trying to be.”

Quoted from JH.

different people have different perspectives.

so, you have to ask yourself,

what are you exactly looking for.

it's best if you don't have any high expectations.

anyway, don't let anyone bring you down.

stay strong

eminem - beautiful

2009-08-23T19:00:00.001+08:00

Study, Belajar, Padi, Du Shu

2009-08-18T22:34:00.000+08:00

just woke up.

I've been studying since five in the afternoon.

then gave myself a few hours to rest.

resumed at nine

and i couldn't believe that i doze off in front of my notes

and it's wet now.

i feel that my brain is going to burst any moment,

literally.

i really hate exam stress.

i really do.